I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Hear it in a frantic tone, because that's how it's sounding in my head.
I had swore to myself that I wouldn't let time lapse on my blog, that I would keep up even when things got crazy. Because I love my blog that much. Because it's therapeutic. Because it's the expectation. So no excuses, but I do have some reasons.
Grad school: I'm done! I presented two weeks ago, and I get hooded next Saturday. Up to the point of the presentation of our research there was a lot to do. My hands, brain and computer were swamped with it.
Teaching: I'm done. Put a fork in me. For the first time ever I do not love my job. The challenges of the fall have resurfaced, and I am literally counting the seconds until June 8th at 3:40. I once again feel like a failure, because I can't teach what I need to teach. I'm exhausted. I have hit a wall.
Health: I've been doing a self-improvement project. I started doing the P.I.N.K. method in February. The point I'm at in my journey is a renewed love for strength training and high-intensity-interval-training, and eating well. By well I mean whole foods, plant based, delicious and sustainable. I feel fantastic and healthy, am getting leaner. But I spend a lot of time cooking these days. Which is good. But the time has to come from somewhere.
And lastly, procrastination: Are you that type of person that as a problem looms bigger and bigger it becomes harder to face? That would be me. So I swept PeacocksandPenguins under the rug for a month and a half.
Where does that take this blog? Well, for starters, I don't have a lot of new ideas because I'm just so tapped. I'm vying for a 4th grade position, so there may be lots of new discovers and explorations on the horizon. Summer break is only 5 weeks away, and that always make for a freer mind and less cluttered life.
I hope I haven't lost too many of you. Thank you for being patient.